My Ass Addiction

Over the years I’ve become convinced I’m happiest when I’m nasty and dirty. I’m a forty-year-old man whose favorite thing is being buried in a woman’s ass. I like to imagine myself as the throne for a lust queen.

When the Obsession Clicked#

It didn’t happen overnight. In my twenties it was just a thrill; by my thirties it was an ache. I remember the first time a partner settled fully on my face and refused to budge. The world shrank to weight and heat and the sting of her nails in my scalp. That moment rewired something. I stopped pretending this was a side kink and accepted it as my core.

After forty years I’ve also noticed that this usually isn’t a primary kink for women. They might enjoy it a bit, but it never seems to burn as hot for them as it does for me.

Learning Where to Look#

Another trait: I’m drawn to women other people might call bitches or sluts—call it whatever you want. I’m not judging; those words just sound like desire to me.

I get turned on knowing a woman has had many partners and a lot of wild adventures. Call-girls in particular fascinate me. It isn’t just because I can pay and leave; it’s that they’re so experienced they probably master sex in ways I never will. That lets me fantasize about being prey in her realm.

Why Professionals Feel Safe#

With call-girls I can be blunt. I can say, “I want to disappear under you,” without worrying it will scare them off. They already know how to manage a body, how to read panic from pleasure. When I pay for that level of experience, I get to surrender without guilt. I know she will park herself on my mouth, hold me down, maybe laugh when I gasp for air—and I know she’ll keep me there just long enough that surrender becomes devotional.

Still Hunting for the Queen#

I’m still searching for the woman who treats my face like her rightful seat outside the appointment window—a partner who feels this kink in her bones the way I do. Until then I keep booking, keep kneeling, keep telling the truth: I am a throne waiting for a queen who enjoys the power as much as I crave the submission.