Maybe it’s obvious, but I’m writing this one without the safety net of a full narrative. Just the flicker of a thought after midnight and the feeling that I’ll forget it if I don’t capture it now.

I keep circling the same question: how many kinks live better in memory than they do in practice? Some nights I crave the mess, the scripts, the scheduling. Other nights I just want permission to be unfinished, to let the fantasy hover without locking it into a booking.

This is me reminding myself that it’s okay to stay in that in-between. Not every urge has to turn into a confession or an encounter. Sometimes the thought is the experience,and that counts.

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Hotwife

13 Aug 2026

I believe this title already tells you it all. But to not end it here, I will unfold a little more.

Family and luxury were the main goals of a regular masculine being, but through regular means they turned out to be mutually exclusive.

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Red Pill and the War of the Sexes

06 Aug 2026

After a failed relationship, I came across red pill content, now widely talked about, breaking out of its bubble and, I would say, even being unfairly exaggerated and persecuted.

After some time, when I got into a new relationship, I gradually lost interest, because I had the impression that everything that needed to be said had already been said, and the producers kept recycling themes in cycles with media clippings.

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From Throne to BBC

30 May 2025

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Over the years I (M40) have realised I’m happiest when I’m dirty, buried in a woman’s ass, serving as her throne. That’s the fantasy that never dims. But on the other side of forty I noticed something: as much as women might enjoy the game, it rarely burns as hot for them as it does for me. It’s my core kink, not always theirs.

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A Woman’s Place

06 May 2024

I have always craved for big asses. I mean from the very beginning. As a skinny guy, since my first masturbation was thinking of big asses of chubby women.

I can remember one of the first porn pictures I saw on the Internet where a woman was sitting over a man’s face, which turned me on almost instantly. More than that, she was making him as a throne and as a toilet. Demoting him and magnifying her. I don´t appreciate scat; however, at that time, that scene turned me on. There were many signs there, which I had to decrypt after, and it was confusing to me, too much information.

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I Am on the Weakest Side

06 May 2024

There is a force pushing men toward women, much stronger than that pushing women towards men. This is given, and it is not up for discussion. I could say that force is called life. Life bounds men and women in that way because this is how we persist on Earth. In a raw sight, males have to provide for female mammals in order to keep their genes on Earth, and their higher libido does it. I am not summarizing the entire human experience; however, it’s impossible to ignore this force in our lives.

At the same time, nature gives males a strength that they use on behalf of females.

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