Shana C.: The Big Mulata
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Context
- How we met: swinger scene in Rio
- Her role: swinger, mulatta
- Dynamic: taunting, contrast
- First encounter: 2006
- Where: downtown Rio
- How it ended: I was broke, couldn’t scale
- Vibe: ugly face, gorgeous body
Everything she lacked in her face she made up for in her body. We walked around downtown Rio and everyone stared, maybe at the contrast between the tall black woman and the skinny white guy next to her. She was a swinger, insanely hot, and possibly my first civilian encounter. I was full of pornographic ideas back then, we talked about inversion, but I had never actually experienced any of it — using panties, swinging, all that. I think it was fashionable then, that thong thing with Beckham.
The Encounter#
Shana was one of my biggest failures. She had that clipped hip-hop black girl hair and the body to match. When the opportunity finally came, I disappointed her =). She even surprised me by buying a thong for me, which was quite exciting — not only did she make me wear it, but she pulled it up so it was really tight, like a hussy, and it made my dick hard. But maybe because it was the first time, I let myself be delivered to passivity and couldn’t flip the switch to be active with her.
The Afterthought#
I realized much later in therapy that this lack of agility to change the mindset cost me many romantic possibilities. Because no matter how much a woman likes different things, she doesn’t let go of what is essential — and I couldn’t either.